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So you know... I turn 19 tomorrow. Woohoo... I'll probably do the same thing I did last year: Nothing.

Okay, okay. So I won't do nothing. But all of my friends work or they're sick. Laura, especially. She's quite ill at the moment :(.

Sean and I are going to a movie and to dinner. That should be fun. Maybe.

If he mentions one thing about missing the fucking raid on WoW due to hanging out with me, though, I don't know that I'll be speaking to him for awhile. It's one thing to play a game and have fun and another to become so entirely addicted to it that you ignore a good friend. *Shrugs*. That's just sad... And a bit hurtful, as well. Being ignored because of a game is not fun, let me tell you. And he says he doesn't. Yeah fucking right. We don't hang out much anymore and when we do, he's still playing the game.

Personally, I'd never ignore someone for that reason... But that's me. Eh. Whatever. So it hurts, but when has anyone cared about that? Heh, I don't know why it bothers me so much, but it does. I don't like thinking than I'm less important to a best friend than a game.

feh.

In other news. My life is pretty much boring lately. It's filled with a lot of work, basically.

I'm going to college in winter. I don't know if it will be at UMKC or at Longview Community. Personally, I'd rather go to the community college first and save money. I don't have the funds at the moment for UMKC. Not with how much I make at my job o.O. Eh... And Longview is closer. My car has indecent gas mileage :|.

Ya know. I need a boyfriend :|. Too bad there's no one around here that I actually like... Wait wait... There was that one person, but he's gay. Why does that always happen? Why are the best ones always gay? Sheesh :P. Add to that the fact that I really don't know any guys. All my friends besides Sean happen to be female or gay. *Grins*. Must go to college. :|. Everyones moved. It's so unfair to me. <.<

If I liked parties more or something. But no. Horrible experiences. Not doing that with a bunch of people I don't know. >.<.

I really want a Nintendo Wii... I dunno why. It just sounds cool. ^^. Maybe for Christmas. Hmmm...

So I already know what I'm getting everyone for Xmas. Not that I have a lot of people to think about, but hey. Laura, Sean, my parents. Those are the big ones. They get the best ^^. Maria, Meagan, Jessica, Stephanie, Brice, etc. not so much worried about that. I don't really do anything other than work with them :|.

I love giving people stuff on the holidays. I'm weird. I barely think about myself. Most of my last couple paychecks have gone to Laura's bday gifts for fucks sake. Christmas shall be fun. :D.

Okay, I'm done with my random topicness. I feel better though, after writing it all out. I just wish I had someone to cuddle with :P.

So I definitely have been to busy to update this journal... I work way too much and play World of Warcraft too much and hang out with friends too much.

Speaking of WoW... One more level til 40. It'll probably take me about a week to even get there, but hey, I work.

I really want to see the Prestige when I have enough money, after I get the couple of things I'm getting. My birthday is next month on the 16th... Uh...

I actually enjoy work lately. With the exception of Shawna, the customer service manager. I'm not sure why she was hired, but it definitely wasn't because she's got awesome managerial skills. I really could go on about her for about three days non-stop. Needless to say, I can't stand her... No one who works with her can stand her... And she's a bitch. ^^.

Er. Hung out with Sean last night. Went golfing and some random guy said something in the way of don't let her kick your ass or something... (IT's a driving range, btw... not an actual course.). Sean just laughed and said I probably would... Of course, I can't. Everyone knew it, but it was still hilarious. I believe I only hit about 8 out of 20 - 30 balls on my first try. But then, I'd never been to a driving range before August. o.O. It's fun. Stress relief and laughing when I suck XD.

Hung out with Laura Sunday night... I miss her. Lol, we used to hang out nearly daily before we both decided we needed to work... Ugh, why did we do that? :P. I <3 my best friend.

Mmkay... Now I get to brag and gloat about the two new things I'm getting. Don't mind me, though. I dont' believe I deserve to, but hell, who doesn't once in awhile :|.

I'm getting a new car today. It's nothing special - a Pontiac Grand Prix. It will replace my piece of shit car the same place sold me that has had more than it's share of problems.
- The brakes are nearly dead. Needs two rotors on the front. Needs brake pads on all. It's *very* hard for me to stop lately.

- It needs... Oh, what's that word... They're expensive, I know that. Ah, hell. I know what they are, but whatever.

- The head gasket is, erm, warped and cracked and all manner of fucked up. That's a wonderful 800 - 1000 dollars right there.

- There's a few oil leaks that have been repaired, but there's still another somewhere.

- The defrost doesn't work. Not a big deal, but YOU try driving when you can't see out the bloody window.

- And a few other issues.

I've only had the car for less than six months. Ugh. So it's going back, and I'm getting a nicer one. Woohoo..


I'm getting a new computer, as well. I'm not sure when I'm buying it, but Sean is building it for me. I don't know back from front and red wires from yellow with computers. I just know how to USE them :|. It'll be nice...

- Intel Pentium Dual Core 3.6 processor. I want Core 2, but it's too new for me to want it right now.
- ATI Radeon X1950Pro graphics card. Woohoo.
... And that's all that really matters to me, but I'm getting a 200 gig HD for all my music, a DVD burner, a pretty case in blue... Yeah... It's for gaming, so the case has to be pretty for fucks sake :|.

*Shrugs*. I'll finally have a nice computer... And I'll have bought it myself. ^^. My other three computers, inc. this one, have all been shitty and cheap... And, well, broken. o.O. Eh.


Bah. It's frickin cold... Must go turn up the heat.

Like, OMGWTF?! I'm updating. *Shrugs*.

So I *would* have started college on Monday. Would. Have. If not for some random issues barring the way.

*sigh*. I had all of my classes figured out and was so ready to start freshman year... But I can't now until winter semester.

Um... My college is about 45 minutes to an hour away, and as I was driving there with Laura to find out where my classes were, my cars transmission slipped so badly that I could neither stop nor accelerate. I don't know anything about cars, and thus started freaking the fuck out...

Well, Laura, thank something, knew what to do. Put the car's hazards on, throw the car into neutral (it didn't like that, by the way, thought my transmission *was* going to fall out) and coast DOWN THE FUCKING HIGHWAY... Because I couldn't stop. Almost get rear-ended. And finally be able to turn onto a side road.

So... My car IS NOT driving to UMKC. Actually, it's not driving much of anywhere, now. Besides work... Once the transmission goes out, we;re taking it back and shit.

Well, and when we eventually got to UMKC, they told me I couldn't get my books or anything (which was the main reason we went) until I paid a minimum fee THEY NEGLECTED to tell me about until ONE WEEK before school started....

This fee? Nearly FOUR HUNDRED fucking dollars... Like ***I*** have that money! Especially before Monday... So... Because of everything about my car, the financial aid lady not telling me what I needed to know, and not finding out about that money til just then... I started crying. Heh. Yeah, frustration does that :S. It just wasn't a good day.

So I'm not attenting college this semester and I'm quite annoyed, but everything will be fine. I'll just work... A lot. Meh.

Damnit all.

Well, besides all this, I've been addicted to World of Warcraft lately. Go WoW! I have a Night Elf Rogue on Perenolde server... Yep yep! It's only level 28 at the moment. But eh.

So... There's life.

And you'd thought I'd died, hadn't you?

Glamorous Soul 32% Flamboyance, 56% Originality, 66% Deliberateness, 56% Sexiness

[Tasteful Original Deliberate Sexy] You choose your outfits carefully according to many criteria. You don't like looking cheap, dull or random and you go to great lengths to avoid this. You are successful, too. People admire your taste and sex appeal. Many try to imitate you but not many can recreate your unique style. Sometimes, however, they find you too intimidating to approach. If you don't wear retro style yet, perhaps you should consider it. It would become greatly your sexy, mysterious self. The opposite style from yours is Fashion Enemy [Flamboyant Conventional Random Prissy]. All the categories: Librarian Sporty Hottie Office Master Uptown Girl/ Boy Brainy Student Movie Star Fashionista Glamorous Soul Fashion Enemy Bar Cruiser Kid Next Door Sex Bomb Hippie Kid Fashion Rebel Fashion Artist Catwalk God(ess)

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 99% on Flamboyance You scored higher than 99% on Originality You scored higher than 99% on Deliberateness You scored higher than 99% on Sexiness

Link: The Fashion Style Test written by mari-e on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

I'm starting to realise that I'm just going to fucking be let down everytime something good comes up.

You scored as The Black Ajah. You are best suited for the Black Ajah. Aes Sedai who belong to this Ajah, have forsaken their vows to the White Tower. By saying their new vows to the Dark One their previous oaths (taken on the oath rod) have been rendered null and void. Therefore, Aes Sedai of the Black Ajah can lie, kill, and make weapons. This Ajah is so secretive that no one member knows all the other members. They know only what they need to know to fulfill their commands. </td> The Black Ajah 90% The Brown Ajah 85% The White Ajah 60% The Blue Ajah 55% The Red Ajah 50% The Gray Ajah 40% The Green Ajah 35% The Yellow Ajah 30% What Ajah are you best suited for? created with QuizFarm.com

It's hilarious, because I was truthful on the quiz. *Shrugs*. I don't even read Wheel of Time anymore, let alone have anything to do with it than the odd discussion here and there. Otherwise... I just don't care anymore for it. Although I've moved to A Song of Ice and Fire. Wonder how long that will last? I get bored so easily.

Right. Sean's in town for a bit for his graduation, and so we decided to hang out for a bit. Since I've already typed the details into another journal, I think I'll just go through what we without them.

We went to mo iikai, the anime store. Didn't buy anything, heh.

After, we noticed a carnival over the highway and went there. We rode the ride that makes the bigger rider into a pancake because the smaller (me) squishes them to death. *giggles*. And the octopus that spun us around more than any other octopus I've ever been on. I couldn't tell what direction was up or down.

Next, we went to Lunar Bowl and played DDR until a group of people came and decided to play and make out with each other at the same time. So... We played Air hockey :D. I kept giving Sean points because I'd somehow hit it into my own goal. o.O. But... I won a couple games :D. My arms killing me today. We played about four games.

Came back to my house and discussed World of Warcraft while talking to Abram. I need more RAM, but I have double the CPU or whatever it's called. Need an external harddrive (actually, I knew I needed that already). Out of my 60GB HD, I only have 6-7GB left. Completely slowing my PC down to the speed of minus snail. The problem? I don't have the money and my dad won't let me buy stuff online. Maybe, if I told him it was for a good cause and anyway... This is technically his computer. I'm making it better for him. EH.

Sean left at around midnight and then I decided to go to bed at around two AM. I seriously can't lift my arm. Ouch. Hm. I think I was supposed to do something... Oh. Water grass for dad. I'll just say I did it. He over-waters it.

I think Sean still likes me. It's... Awkward, I suppose. Or it was at times. I now know that Karrie is jealous of me, that she yells at Sean for talking to me online, and that I overall cannot stand the stupid bitch. Sean is a good friend that I've known since kindergarten, for fucks sake. I've contemplated everything I could do to her from where I am at the moment... But I won't, because it'll just be worse on Sean. But hey... It feels nice to know some people are just that damned stupid. :).

At any rate. I definitely only like Sean as friend. Tried the other route, didn't work out, not going there again. Karrie is a fool... I won't say anything else. Here, at least.

I officially never have to go back to that goddamned high school! *Dances!*. My last day was Thursday, technically, but I had to go back for the stupid Senior Breakfast. Breakfast? Shit, they gave us about 10 minutes to actually eat before they said "Okay, to the PAC for senior awards!". Fucking stupid. Pointless as hell, as well. I wouldn'tve gone but for having to pick up my cap and gown. That's blue. Icky.

Anyway. Yesterday, Laura and I went shopping to celebrate. I bought the Dir en grey CD from Hot Topic. I don't really like Hot Topic too much anymore. Nothing I ever want. *Shrugs*. But that CD... YESSSSSSSS... *Ahem*. And they're playing on the Family Values tour, that I don't want to go to. I don't like Korn, but I'd go JUST to see Diru and pay the ten dollars. Er. 16, after the ticketmaster fees. Damnit. Whatever.

I'm so damned excited about graduation. It's not until May 28th, but shit...

Anyway. back to shopping. I also bought two shirts from Charlotte Russe and two pairs of flip flops from Old Navy. One was for Laura for having to put up with my shopping. She doesn't like it, but... I love shopping a lot more than any person should. Heh... Yeah.

Then we went back to her house and I got to see Lily. Pretty puppy ^_^.

We ate. We went to Borders and I bought the second and third books by George R. R. Martin (Game of Thrones books.) I'm still on the first, but I love it so much I decided to buy the other two. Those were all they had, anyway. :|. I also bought Blood Canticle by Anne Rice and the newest Nightside book by what's his name... I'm terrible with names, really. Oh well. Laura bought stuff too. :D.

We went back to her house and had a pillow fight. Knocked our heads together, moaned in pain for awhile, and then proceeded to smack each other with pillows some more. :D.

Hah. Watched some Food Network and then I fell asleep at around 2:30-ish, I think. Woke up at 6:30 because I had to get to the breakfast by 8. Damn... So tired, I was. But I couldn't sleep afterwards, and I was too excited anyway. I won a twenty dollar Wal-Mart gift card from the raffle, though. That was nice. I only have about five dollars left on it now. Heh.

Mum and I went to Hobby Lobby after, and she got me this cut little Asian tea-pot that's orange and green. Seriously, it's adorable.

I almost bought the India ink pens that I wanted to use in my sketchbook, but damnit, I thought Wal-Mart would have them. Guh. I was wrong, they didn't. They did have the eraser set I wanted, though. That was nice. Bought a shirt as well as Angels and Demons by Dan Brown from Wal-Mart, too.

Came home, again, left to go to physical therapy. The guy says my neck and shoulders are getting better, but I don't seem to feel a difference. Oh well. What can I do?

Came back home. Cancelled my doctors appointment as being pointless and because I had a terrible headache. Ate lunch. Took a nap... It went from 2:30 to 7:30, I was that tired. I still am, but I don't have to get up until 9:30 tomorrow for work... So why should I go back to bed now? It's only 11:45... Bwahahaha..

Wooo. I'm writing way too damned much. I should LJ cut, but I can't seem to find it in me. *Giggles*.

This is all pointless, anyway. But I'm bored. I need a new bookshelf. I've completely filled the two I have, and have another small bookshelf worth of books just lying around. I have even READ those books, either. :|. I just keep buying them. It's like some screwed up addiction. There's probably 50 or so I haven't read yet. I need to stop, pretty soon I'll have no room left for anything... Wouldn't that be amusing? I think so. That's just me.

I think I'll go continue on a Game of Thrones right now. I'm only about 250 pages into it. Normally, I hate books on political intrigue and the like, but this is lovely. I dunno. I didn't like the way it was set up at first, with the separate character chapters, but it really works well... Yeah... I'm leaving now.

Oh! And I have a 4.0 still! YAY! Passed every final... Well. Not health, because I really didn't try. I kept giggling throughout the whole thing for no reason. It was so incredibly pointless as I could've gotten a zero and my grade would've stayed the same. I'm the kind of person who doesn't try when there's no need. Bad, I know, but that's how it goes.

I... had a lot of fun at the Fall Out Boy concert last night. Found a new band to love as well. From First to Last. Yay! But I did have two panic attacks because I have this fear of being in the middle of a large crowd of people. And well. Laura and I were in the middle, basically. I'm more of a side of the stage person where I can breathe and not fear the people pushing and shoving and touching me :D.

And I saw at least 5 people that I know. Yay! And one we saw at IHOP afterwards, lol. I bought a Hawthorne Heights t-shirt despite not having a great like of the band. The shirt was pretty. Lol.

Umm... I work tonight from 5:30 to 9. They cut my hours short by thirty minutes! OH GOD! I don't care... And cut by an hour tomorrow. I still don't care. I hate working Saturdays. I hate dealing with people. I need an office job or something. Or a job to work with animals. I cannot believe the idiocy of people sometimes. "um, do I sign here?" "No." "Are you sure?" "yes." "But this is the receipt to sign!" "No, it isn't." "There's a line right here, though!" "(I'm thinking this) LOOK lady, I've just told you three fucking times you DO NOT SIGN THIS STUPID SHEET OF PAPER! YOU SIGN THE NEXT ONE! (But I really said) YOU sign THIS one right HERE!".

Okay. On the next survey, I got a 30... Which probably means I'm spoiled since a lot of the questions involve things I need to be older for o.O. Well. I know I'm spoiled, never mind. I wonder if it also counts if a lot of the stuff you really would never do or care about such as perfume. Ick. I hate the stuff.

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